Sick of Winter

by Abby on February 5, 2014

Outside my window, it’s raining glass. An ice storm blew through our area last night, crystallizing all the trees, making everything look as though it’s been dipped in molten glass. As it’s warmed up throughout the day, the ice has begun shattering and falling in individual shards and great sparkling bursts. It’s actually really beautiful. Except it’s tough for me to fully appreciate nature’s beauty right now.

trees covered in ice

It’s been a hard winter. The snow and ice have wreaked havoc on my kids’ school schedules and my work schedule, and life feels tumultuous and unsettled. A snow day here and a school delay there is one thing, when you can enjoy a lazy morning before you bundle the kids off to their routines and you go back to yours. But weeks of juggling, slick roads, and shattered windshields are another. (Not mine, thankfully.)

Everyone I know is sick. Another set of neighbors has just moved away. On days I see other adults, if I do at all, it’s often in passing. We wave mittened hands in the carpool line, cross slushy paths at school pickup. Then it’s back home, back to work, back to the doctor’s, back to bed. No one’s playing outside. No one’s lingering at the bus stop. No one’s stopping by, just because.

A family member who’s been battling cancer is sick again. Trips have been cancelled. Worry and fear have seeped back into our daily life. All the things I can think of to pull myself back from the abyss I’ve tried. But you can’t work out when you’re sick. You can’t meet up for coffee if school’s cancelled. You don’t feel like making dinner plans when it’s cold and wet and dark.

I know the winter will pass. I know spring will come again. But today it’s still winter, people are still sick, I’m feeling isolated, and it’s hard.

This afternoon I opened the mailbox and found a package of live ants. Yes, ants! You can order live bugs through the U.S. Postal Service. Who knew? I ordered them for my son’s ant farm, which he got for Christmas. The bug place wouldn’t ship the ants until it was above freezing, however. So we’ve been waiting. Then today — the melting ice, the ants’ arrival — signs of life, yes? Yes. Let’s go with that.

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Kate Hopper February 6, 2014 at 12:38 pm

On Abby, you could have been writing about my life right now, too. I feel your pain. I’m so over this winter and have been sick and sick and sick. I just feel depleted.

This morning I started the free ten-day trial app Get Some Headspace. They are daily ten-minute meditations. (I’ve never been into that before.) but I can’t tell you how it shifted my perspective a little today. Opened things up. Check it out.

Hoping for a break for all of us!

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Abby February 6, 2014 at 1:08 pm

Kate, that’s such a weird coincidence! I am currently writing an article on meditation and someone told me about that app. It was on my to-do list for today. Off to download it…

Here’s to an early spring!

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